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Fatigue is my biggest enemy
Not just because of the CFS, but obviously the CFS makes it so much worse.

Recently I've been noticing how much worse my mood gets when I'm tired. This is partly because I've been trying to go with the flow a bit more and not beat myself up too much when I'm low. The thing is my lowest times seem to be after I've done a weekend event and am absolutely shagged out. I suspect people aren't quite aware of how much of my ability to keep going at weekend events is purely adrenaline and 2l a day of Coke. It's usually two to three days before I've recovered physically from one.

And as I say, when I'm tired, my depression gets harder to battle. I generally just have to sit it out and do no brain activities like Internet and DVDs. I've tried forcing myself into action, and it just makes things worse. Better to try to look after myself until the whole thing passed.

The solution to this is obvious, right? Stop doing LARP weekenders. Brilliant deduction, Holmes, but there's a quality of life issue here. These events are one of the few things that actually give me some real pleasure. If I were to always make judgments based on whether my CFS was up to it, I'd never do anything fun at all. So I try to look after myself when I'm not doing something important to me and accept that the good doesn't come without the bad. I'm so much less than I want to be, but I guess I just have to live with that.
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slappersire From: slappersire Date: September 29th, 2005 10:59 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm probably asking a question you've already asked here, but is part of the reason you struggle at the LARPs the fact that you're not neccessarily eating properly?

I'm aware of very little about CFS I'm afraid. But would eating regular meals of low GI food for a decent energy release help at all?
taimatsu From: taimatsu Date: September 29th, 2005 11:21 am (UTC) (Link)
C, if you think it would, I'm happy to be useful on the cooking front. (I just need some notice ahead of time, and we can sort out appropriate menus.)
jo_english_bint From: jo_english_bint Date: September 29th, 2005 11:13 am (UTC) (Link)
Try having time out sessions while out at the Larp events.

An hour of just chilling somewhere, or meditation, might help.

Also not throwing yourself into the event like there's no tomorrow - pace yourself!

Not sure if this might help or not, but worth suggesting!

taimatsu From: taimatsu Date: September 29th, 2005 11:23 am (UTC) (Link)
This is a good point - you do seem to be one of the people who's more constantly on the go. Obviously that's good from the POV of getting into the game and having things to do, but the other side is never taking a break! :)
evilmomlady From: evilmomlady Date: September 29th, 2005 10:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm with slappersire on that one as far as diet is concerned. I have found that eating food with a lower Glycemic Load has helped me to feel a bit more energetic, but then I do have type2 diabetes, so that might have something to do with it. If eating starchy food makes you sleepy, then you definitely should have a look at the low glycemic foods. I know it would be difficult because it's one more stress added to your life, but in the long run you may feel the benefits. Even if you could just replace refined carbs by their unrefined equivilents, you should see the difference. Hope you're feeling better soon.
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