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It shouldn't have to be like this
So, I should be filling in job applications. Instead I'm sitting here feeling sad because my Maelstrom character, who I believe may have been my favourite roleplaying character ever, bar none, died last weekend. I feel so stupid, being all upset over something that wasn't even real. But it was to me.
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blackcurrants From: blackcurrants Date: June 12th, 2008 07:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
oh, honey. I'd be exactly the same. She was wonderful. Have you talked to Lucy about it? I get the feeling she might be rather helpful.
lord_sandwich From: lord_sandwich Date: June 12th, 2008 07:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
If I really enjoy playing a character I do get emotionally attached to them. If I feel attached to a character I start to care about their personal story, which makes them great fun roleplaying, but means its a real bugger when they get killed before I feel their story arc is over. I don't think its anything strange to get upset or even end up mourning for a bit when one of them dies.

I know this isn't really helpful but I don't think you should feel stupid for feeling sad because I think there's plenty of us would feel the same way.
rysmiel From: rysmiel Date: June 12th, 2008 07:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
Just because they are fictional does not mean they are not real. The bottle I happen to have to hand to raise in memoriam contains water, but is being raised nonetheless.
talismancer From: talismancer Date: June 12th, 2008 08:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'll raise a bottle too. Mine has mead in it.
squintywitch From: squintywitch Date: June 12th, 2008 09:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
I get exactly the same. When my last LRP character to die snuffed it, I was unbelievably upset - not in a shrieky way, but I went about feeling subtly bereaved for days. I got over it by throwing myself into making new kit for my new character and getting her genned up... and Popova is cool, and now she's ALL YOURS!
sesquipedality From: sesquipedality Date: June 12th, 2008 11:29 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yes. She *is* helping. Thanks to darling Andrea, I didn't break down until after time out on Sunday.
cov_cloud From: cov_cloud Date: June 13th, 2008 04:29 am (UTC) (Link)
well, she was rather wonderful. Why not hold a little wake for her ? Have a laugh remembering her best moments and the like.
secretrebel From: secretrebel Date: June 13th, 2008 09:56 am (UTC) (Link)
I heard about that from TheHattedOne, sounds like a really tough one. At least fictional characters don't hurt themselves, it's just sad to say goodbye to them.

sesquipedality From: sesquipedality Date: June 13th, 2008 10:05 am (UTC) (Link)
On the scale of things, it's quite a small thing, really.

Thanks for the sympathy.
taimatsu From: taimatsu Date: June 13th, 2008 02:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ah, I'm sorry. Characters *are* real and can be mourned.
taimatsu From: taimatsu Date: June 13th, 2008 02:05 pm (UTC) (Link)
I still think very fondly of the dear departed Ghosts. Though I suppose I'm mourning the group dynamic as much as the individual personae.
sesquipedality From: sesquipedality Date: June 15th, 2008 09:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah. It was a fabulous group to play with.

You should come and do Maelstrom or Insurrection when it starts.

Also, are you coming to see Thea on Friday? Do you need a bed?
knightclubber From: knightclubber Date: June 16th, 2008 11:45 am (UTC) (Link)
I know what you mean; for her and the other characters who died at the event I have this nagging feeling of not getting to say goodbye. There was a lot Jean wanted to say to Amelie and a story still to be told.

We need a wake for my favourite priestess of the Weaver.
sesquipedality From: sesquipedality Date: June 16th, 2008 12:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
That's what makes me saddest. There was so much story still there. And it was going to be so wonderful. Ah well.
invisible_al From: invisible_al Date: June 24th, 2008 08:57 pm (UTC) (Link)
I don't think we ever actually met at Maelstrom but I know Dom who has spoken of Amelie a lot (frothed about to be exact). But yes I know exactly what you mean, I lost one of my favourite characters ever at the last event as well.

Don't feel stupid, as someone said to me on my LJ strong emotions after the end of an emotional investment is normal and healthy, not having feelings like this would be weird. And if you've played strong and with heart, as I'm sure from what I've heard you did, then it hits you hard when it's over. And that's ok y'know.

But my word is your character going to be missed and that's a tribute to how well you played her.
sesquipedality From: sesquipedality Date: July 2nd, 2008 09:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's a real surprise to me that she does seem to have affected people so deeply. In a way its going to be really interesting to watch what happens next from the sidelines.

Thanks for your thoughts.
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